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Winter Rental
Island of Martha's Vineyard, seven miles off southeast coast of Massachusetts. Winter population, 12,000; in summer 62,000.
masthead, Vineyard Gazette
I. Picture Postcards
At Alley's, picking postcards from the rack beside her friend, the stylish lady says, "The year-round folk are taciturn and mad. There's no one here in winter." So she says. "The isolation does it. Makes them mad as hatters." Squatting down to get my mail, I mutter to the wall, "How madly glad I'll be when all you summer folk have sailed away to entertainments, mainland style. Next summer I'll be local color, wild and surly, stinking like a lobster boat, and making snide remarks to tourists. No, I won't appear in any postcard scene, where waves stand still, and every beach is clean."
II. A Window on the Harbor
I came prepared to be suspicious, cool, the tough prospective tenant. Was seduced by one glance out the window, giddy fool in love with dancing water, set to roost in this apartment whether toilets flushed or not. I move in, vowing to enjoy the view but never to forget I must be gone by June. A wise if cautious ploy that doesn't work. The very walls inspire a lethargy of will, and every poem completed here's a tendril tough as wire demanding ground to root in. "This is home," I say, where people-laden ferries pass in scheduled cycles, through the salt-sprayed glass.
III. Ancient Ways (for Mary)
Invoking ancient ways, you make me think of England, where the paths I walked were traced by long-dead serving maids and shepherds, link- ing dale to dale. Though others own this place, the trails are claimed by all. I feel so young in your house; decades passing through have left that picture placed just so, and round days strung in patterns intricate and full, bereft of nothing. I move often, leave my tracks to vanish under brush and fade away, while your house like the whole damn island lacks for no one. Still I trace these paths each day, sometimes with you, more likely when alone, and hope like rain to wear away at stone.
IV. A Kitchen of My Own
If Sisyphus were female, hell might be a kitchen, and her sentence to prepare an endless chain of balanced meals. Then she, too tired to eat, must coax this gourmet fare down gullets primed for sloppy joes. Not me -- for years I ate what others cooked, and stayed away from kitchens, English Breakfast tea the most elaborate dish I ever made. What happened here? Was it the eight-month lease, the open doors, the absent warning signs of permanent entrapment? I bake bread and stock my shelves, create each meal complete, as I shape wayward phrases into rhymes. No chain or dead end, this, but home instead.
V. Clearing Out
There's no housecleaning thorough as the one I give a place I'm leaving. Every act is charged as sacred dance and must be done with care. My desk dismantled, memories packed in cartons, is a disconnected brain; it's tough to write without it. Sorting clothes by season isn't hard, or flushing drains, but mere intent to start the kitchen slows my steps to creeping sludge. A heart beats here: I know it, know it lives and has no faith in transport or revival somewhere clear across the island. Change is never safe. I'm bleeding too; the sloughing off makes clear it's spring, there are no nesting places here.
VI. On Being a Year-round Tenant in a Summer Resort
The planet's very axis must be skewed to make these lopside seasons. Here it's spring yet we prepare to pull our winter roots and move again. Relentless summer flings the unattached before it, so we cling like barnacles to shells, or learn to ride the tidal wave like surfers. Skirts aswing, the wily serving maid will be my guide. She runs another's errands, filches time to walk the ancient ways, but always turns chameleon when the master comes. So I conduct myself, for something in me yearns to root in sand, no longer wondering that the year-round folk are taciturn and mad.
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